Swings and roundabouts. Good days are seemingly always followed by horrendous days in my world. Yesterday wasn't good and today has so far been a nightmare (quite literally as I have been in severe panic mode all morning and now it's creeping back which means my sedatives are wearing off, I've had such trouble breathing I now have chest pains and for some reason I've taken to biting myself very hard and even growling. I can feel my heart beating in my throat and want to throw up, my blood pressure is going up again and I feel sudden bursts of anger). Things, well, aren't good.
Fingers crossed I can cope better tomorrow, lots to share from Saturday.
Please send happy vibes my way, these sorts of days make me very dispondent and scared xxx