Helter Skelter

I've been having a hard time and haven't even been near to the allotments or even a garden center since I last wrote about that Saturday we worked so hard. Life truly has felt like a helter skelter; each move forward I try to take is like climbing a massive steep set of stairs, only to have the smallest window of joy as I inevitably slide back down to land on my bum again. Plus I am exhausted, mentally and physically.

I did have a lovely birthday day in Belfast (Sunday 17th) with shopping, lots of good eating, and a few drinks with even a friend coming up for a couple of hours. Andrew and I even stayed over in hotel and then had breakfast out on the Monday and saw some art exhibitions in the Belfast MAC. On the Tuesday we visited one of our favourite National Trust sites, Rowallane. Pictures tomorrow x

However, throughout it all the depression and the feeling of it all being seen as though it was a film, never left me. I slept the rest of the week.

There were extremely thoughtful gifts in the post that made me tear up and feel so loved but after a few moments I hated myself and felt unworthy. I've been so mixed up.

Never the less I have still been looking out for those happy moments in the days and trying to photograph them. I've mentally been dreaming about happy things to come and craft projects I wish to do.  Which leads me to my Happy Days 21- 40.

 21 - Newest finished piece of sewing 22 - The Maud's ice cream bears waving "hello!" 23 - Stunning yellow and purple flowers together :) 24 - Coffee at the new cafe in The Bank House! 25 - New glasses today!! I can see :)

26 - Our WW1 remembrance candle  27 - New pincushions being made...love these buttons ;) 28  -Quickly made a black out eye mask, take that migraine!! 29 - I loves me a pretty candle or two 30 - A damp old day

31- Courgette and chilli omelette for late lunch ;)  32 - Maggie joins in with the #fatsit cool #schnauzer group :) on Instagram 33 - Dried apricots, fresh blueberries and natural yogurt - lunch of champions!! 34 - (Maggie says..) 'She trimmed my eyebrows and brushed my beard....I gave her stink eye and went to bed. Gggrr woof! to grooming!' 35 - Two big parcels posted off this morning :)

36 - Wall art in Carrickfergus Museum 37 - Gorgeous bracelet from Andrew for my birthday 38 - Naughty breakfast in the MAC Belfast - yummy! 39 - Spider in the keyhole..... 40 - Maggie resting after her conquest over the evil purple dragon :)

I have so much to catch up on, the blog will be full stream ahead over the next few days, thank you for waiting for me xxx