I fear the allotment may think I have abandoned it, poor thing. The bank holiday weekend we just had ought to have seen me there with my gardening gloves on and my hands busy in weed pulling and seed planting. Alas it was not to be as my mental health took a terrible nose dive and I was lucky to see the sunshine through the half drawn blinds.
Mental breakdowns don't care if the weather is stunning and you have hopes and made plans. Mental breakdowns suck. They leave me exhausted beyond words and so utterly depressed that my body just can't do a thing and I end up so frustrated and angry that any energy I did have gets burned up and I am left with sleep as my only option! Arrghhh.
So instead of tending my plot I slept. Andrew managed to get there for short periods whilst I was 'busy' sleeping and it is looking quite good. It's a miracle!
I am so glad I used a Saturday a few weeks back to plant up my tiered flower pot stand, these babies have given me hope and joy every day. Yesterday I managed to drag myself out of the house to the back garden and sit by them for a while - a little burst of ecotherapy goes a long way.
I SHALL see my plot this week at some point, I miss it and I miss being able to share the goings on with you.
But already I have been outside today with my camera and as soon as I am finished here, out I shall go again and get me more Vitamin D 😊
Hopefully I shall write again soon
Your Carrie x
Mental breakdowns don't care if the weather is stunning and you have hopes and made plans. Mental breakdowns suck. They leave me exhausted beyond words and so utterly depressed that my body just can't do a thing and I end up so frustrated and angry that any energy I did have gets burned up and I am left with sleep as my only option! Arrghhh.
So instead of tending my plot I slept. Andrew managed to get there for short periods whilst I was 'busy' sleeping and it is looking quite good. It's a miracle!
I am so glad I used a Saturday a few weeks back to plant up my tiered flower pot stand, these babies have given me hope and joy every day. Yesterday I managed to drag myself out of the house to the back garden and sit by them for a while - a little burst of ecotherapy goes a long way.
But already I have been outside today with my camera and as soon as I am finished here, out I shall go again and get me more Vitamin D 😊
Hopefully I shall write again soon
Your Carrie x
Your Japanese maple is looking stunning. Mine is at the crabby autumn sticks stage.
ReplyDeleteAh, autumn. Here i am in the beginnings of summer and already my mood and my hay fever are wishing for the damp and dreary days of autumn, haha. No, things are not that bad. I wish you pleasant brisk days, rain and cocoa drinks as it gets a little cooler xx
DeleteYour colourful garden flowers look nice. I hope that you feel better soon and get to enjoy some plotting. Take care, and hugs. xx
ReplyDeleteWhere would i be without you Flighty? Thank you for your ever encouraging comments. I tried to go last night to the plot but I was really too ill. Today is another day though xx
DeleteHello Sweetie .. I am sorry I have been MIA .. problem after problem .. I too want to sleep away and need to shake myself .. you are not alone sweetie ! I feel your situation so much .. our garden thoughts help us navigate these mind-fields though. Your pots are simply lovely ! and I envy your Japanese maple ... mine are a total mess and I don't know what to do for them .. one has completely given up so I guess I have to face that truth .. in any case .. I have been thinking of you. It is just that I haven't been able to sit here .. I will at some point though .. so take care and we will get there some time right ? ;-)
ReplyDeleteThe tiered stand is beautiful
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