Wednesday, 16 January 2013

This is what it's all about

I have been tardy with my writing and I am sorry but I have been very unwell both physically (I still have the flu!) and mentally. In fact I have been so ill in my noggin that I was for giving up on life altogether and that my friends is a really frightening thing to hear yourself say, but I was serious about it.

I've got out of that particular downward spiral and now I feel I little stronger and able to fight. And I intend to win, in time :)

For now it is all about resting; just allowing myself some grace and cutting out the 'I have tos' and the 'I really ought tos'... Resting now will give me energy and strength and hopefully when I do recover the good times will last a while :) Wow, see how much more positive I am? - I never thought I would get here again.

You know one thing that has really helped? This....
Andrew told me they were coming out but I didn't believe him (I was in my dark place) until I went outside myself this afternoon. This is Ecotherapy it's purest form, a single bud resurrected from the depths of the cold earth simply to herald hope.

HOPE; it grows within me again.....

Namasté my friends xx

16 comments:

  1. Snowdrops are the very best medicine

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  2. What a beautiful post and a courageous one. It amazing how we can hope in so many different ways.

    I'm glad you're feeling better. Do exactly what your inner doctor recommended -- rest and take it easy:~)

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  3. My dear Carrie, HOPE is indeed all around us when we are ready to see it! :) Stay strong, my sweet friend, you are loved!!!! I certainly DO!!!!!
    HUGE BEAR HUGS!!!!!

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  4. today is too hot to do much else than rest. Dripping as I read ... wish we could swop a little warmth and coolth!

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  5. Glad you're back, Carrie. Hope is essential, isn't it.

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  6. Sue ~ you are right, they bring such happiness to me. In fact Andrew is going to buy more this weekend :)

    Sara ~ My inner Dr is diffenately being tested; I am the most terrible patient imaginable - ask Andrew, I have his head turned! It's so good to hear from you xx

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  7. Annuk ~ my sweet angel, how I love your hugs. Thank you friend, you are most loved as well xxx

    Diana ~ what a gorgeous photo of you! Yep, I guess we all get a little of what the other wants in life. Sure you can have some of our cold, damp, flu inducing weather in trade for a little blue sky! xxx

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  8. Nikkipolani ~ I was so glad today that when I had the strength to come to my blog and write that you had done so too :) Your post made me giggle, or rather my horrified reaction made me giggle and I really haven't been doing much of that recently. Thank you xxxx

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  9. Ugh the flu. I had it a few weeks ago. I really hope you feel better!! Nice blog by the way. May I follow??

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  10. Why yes Optimistic Existentialist you may follow me indeed, I only wish I had some cake to share! Sadly I only have the flu and now you have defeated it I doubt you want it back. Great to have allow for the ride x

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  11. Thank you for your wonderful comment on my blog. I shall become your newest follower. Feel free to follow mine as well if you so wish :)

    Have a great day!

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  12. Optimistic Existentialist - :D I am your newest follower! number 501

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  13. You are one of the very strongest and most courageous people I know.

    Looking forward to seeing you in a good place again.

    Until then, ***BIG HUGS!***

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  14. Snowdrops are such a welcome sight! Take care, Flighty xx

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  15. It sometimes seems to me that the people who feel they have the least give the most away. You may be feeling low at the moment but from what I can see you are sending out an awful lot of love and warmth. I just hope that soon you will feel all the love that is being returned to you. big hugs xx

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  16. Thank you Melanie, thank you so much xxxxxxx

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