Thursday, 15 January 2015

Just like a bulb...

...I hibernate; with no expectations being made of me, waiting for the winds to change and life to become a more settled environment. Then I shall hopefully find that the sun and some TLC will bring me forth into life and once again I shall bloom.

I have been finding this new year, thus far, one of deep depression and confusion. The big questions playing on loop in my head are: what is my purpose? where is my voice? what has happened to my creativity? I haven't got any satisfactory answers yet and so I continue to wrestle and find myself utterly exhausted. 

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One thing I am doing and getting some satisfaction from is decluttering. I'm getting rid of lots of things in my life, really old shoes, my old photography work, music CDs, books I didn't like and yes, even blogs from my reading list. I'm trying to be tough and simply get rid of that which I don't need, don't want, don't like anymore. There is a little weight lifted each time I say goodbye.

Andrew, Maggie and I have also started to do after dinner walks in all sorts of weather and slowly they shall get longer and longer. Next week I'm back into yoga too - I'm hoping I can learn to respect myself more through the dedication and slow improvements.

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Allotment wise ~

Well our field is a wind tunnel at the best of times so imagine it today, we had gusts up to 42 mph! Plus it's just been so damn damp and cold there that, though we have made quick visits, it's not suitable for doing any work. We happily still have leeks, chard, parsnips and the purple sprouting broccoli looks good :)



The local nursery has been closed until this week and the other one we visit is still trying desperately to de-christmasify itself  = buying seeds and supporting local shops has been proving difficult. Still, you know me, I have my flower seeds all picked out and think I'll go with a smallish online shop. Andrew needs asparagus crowns too, so he'll also be shopping online. Oh we have such plans!

 *** P.S. NOW is a great time for pruning your fruit bushes and for training trees into shape. ***

Hugs and love and I hope you too are plotting, planning and scheming for a good year ahead 
Your Carrie x

14 comments:

  1. Soaking wet here too, so I've hardly been to the plot, except yesterday to quickly pick some sprouts. Lots of decluttering here as well, I'm really enjoying getting rid of things. Well done on the walks and yoga, I'm sure it will do you some good. I hope things are better for you soon. CJ xx

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    1. Isn't it wonderful that our plots still provide for us even in these dark and dreary months :) I'm terrible at getting rid of things, I always think they might come in useful. Thank you for your best wishes xxxx

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  2. Ohhh sprouts, yuck, haha!! Yeah a fellow declutter-er, it really does feel good, lots more to do though :)
    Thanks for the encouragement and here's hoping I get through this rough patch a stronger person ( and more flexible too) xx

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  3. I've been hit by the de-clutter bug too, but have been stopped in my tracks by some weird ailment (doctor are puzzled) which caused much pain and my hands and feet to swell. I'm slowly getting better, but it's very strange.

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    1. Oh sweet Kath, life just hasn't be fair to you health wise these past months. I sincerely hope this painful swelling disappears soon. Your hands are needed for seed planting soon!
      Much love xxx

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  4. I appreciate that you keep plugging along even when there's depression and hard questions swirling in your head. Glad the de-cluttering is helping -- a worthy project, indeed.

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    1. Ah nikkipolani you are the sweetest. Thank you. The decluttering has slightly run out of stream today but Maggie did receive a haircut from me instead :)
      Hope all is well with you xx

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    2. So, even Maggie got a "de-cluttering"!

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  5. I sympathise as I think I could happily hibernate until there's better weather, it's spring and I can get plotting again. Take care and keep warm. Flighty xx

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    1. You keep warm too my friend...I find soups the best foodstuffs in these cold days. Thank goodness Mamma G gave us a blender :)
      Roll on spring! Xxx

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  6. We combined some decluttering with decorating but I really should go through my wardrobe. My bloglist too needs an update, We only go ti the plot to gather food too - it's far too soggy, Enjoy the walks and yoga - we need some photos of you throwing some shapes. :)

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    1. Our decluttering started with redecoration too :) Its amazing how much stuff you realise you have when you have to move it about!
      Sorry to hear your plot is super wet too, we had snow today.
      Haha, I'm not sure if I have the confidence to publish photos of my yoga....maybe in the summer at the Lottie :)

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  7. gentle decluttering here, but, I'd MUCH rather be in the garden.
    My blog list keeps running away from me, prompting me to leave behind those that I skim, instead of read.

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  8. I'm beginning to believe the end is near for blogging. With FB and Twitter, as well countless other quicker means of communication around the world, blogging seems to have less pull. It kind of makes me sad. As I am older, FB and Twitter actually drive me a bit crazy...to much action and not enough time to think about what I want to say.

    I'm not sure why I'm telling you all this...Regarding your post, you have to do what's RIGHT for you! Decluttering life is important. I had to do it recently when we renovated a part of our house. I couldn't believe how much junk I got rid of. So, go for it and enjoy:~)

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