Thank you Nature

I am not religious, but I came across this Jewish song today and by replacing the words Lord and God with that of Nature it became so beautiful and as I read it my heart swole even in this day of hailstones and freezing winds. Nature leads us through these inhospitable times in order to show her beauty, power and prescence and in order to make the sweet spring all the more uplifting.

'I will extol Thee, O Nature, for Thou hast drawn me up, and have not allowed my foes to rejoice over me. O Nature, I cried out to Thee and Thou didst heal me. O Nature, Thou raised my soul from the grave, Thou kept me alive that I should not descend into the pit.'

At these times of poor weather, of cold and hard ground, this period were I can not be in touch with Nature She still gives me strength. My Depression is utterly woeful but I look to my photographs and try to remember the joy of seedlings, of much colour and fragrance and rich bounty from the soil. May you do the same.

My warmest wishes to you  all xxx

Excerpt from my Dublin diary...

This has nothing to do with allotments, with buying seed or even thinking about garden design. However I have always wanted Grow Our Own to be about growth, growth of every kind and particualrily personal growth, also, I just wanted to share with you a bit from my wee trip to Dublin over the past 2 days.....

Dublin Nov '10

A melting pot, a cauldron of people, ideas, passions and fun - bag loads of fun. You come to Ireland, North or South and you will never be stuck for a conversation. Go into a bar, one that seems dark, old, dirty even and you walk into another world. Forget wanting everybody knowing your name - this is a place where a stranger is a friend you just haven't met yet. Honestly. There may be differences (political, religious, ideological) but damn it, that can be overlooked over the rim of a pint glass and for the duration of your stay you're with family. Better than that, you are with mates.

Craic can be summed up in 5mins of being in a good bar. Relaxed chat over nothing, nothing important, becomes the most pressing issue. Find something, a common ground of any sort and the relaxed (and sometimes passionate, beautifully passionate) talk and camaraderie flows - like the beer.

Sit alone and you are never alone. Conversations that you can't quite catch envelope you and the occasional burst of laughter, it all equals a comfort blanket where you are safe. You are Home.

I enoyed my time in Dublin and spent a good few hours alone when I just wrote and wrote in my trusty Moleskine. The weather was foul, utterly miserable and I have sore feet today but looking back at my little scribblings and the few photos I did manage to take, I know it won't be too long before I'm back there :)

Here is a vaguely gardeny, 'grow your own veg' related photo - barley (at the Gunniness Factory; but don't worry I didn't sully the next batch of the Black Stuff, this was for tourists to touch!) - see I do think of you when I am away xxxx

A beautiful Autumn day

I have been so busy this week, you simply must forgive me ;) I have my very 1st craft fair tomorrow, or rather, today as it is now way past my bedtime!! I am going to Cookstown (which has the longest street in Ireland, maybe even Europe - wow, I know) to try and ply my photographic and crafty wares. Please send all the most powerful and optimist vibes you can, I need them - eek!

So last weekend Andrew and I went for a lovely drive. We do happen to live in one of the most amazingly gorgeous places in the world - the Antrim Coast. So we drove and stopped for a beer and then went to Carnfunnock Country Park to revel in the beauty of the autumnal colours with our wee Maggie in tow. Here are a few (I think) delightful photographs to prove, if proof were needed, that Autumn, although often despressing can in fact be one of the most nautrally glorious times of the year.....

My love, as always...

Ummmmmmm, a collage would have been good here but I am far too sleepy...

Talk next week as we are off to Dublin for the weekend - yippppeeee!

So who would live in a house like this? pt 2

Welcome to our kitchen/dining area. We haven't done anything in here yet bar bring in our furniture and I bought the funky new red clock. We have the tiles ordered for the rest of the room - the builders only did the 'kitchen' so we've had to get the dining area done ourselves. Lucky our builders are super nice and got us discount on the same tiles from their supplier - every little helps.

In the mean time we just cook in it (well Andrew does, I just don't cook) and Maggie sleeps over by the door, ha, there she is showing off her area of the house. We are (I say 'we' but I mean Andrew, as I am obviously sitting on my bum writing this) at the moment moving round our white bookcases tthat will go eaithher side of the red sofa and then we'll get the wall mounted long one to join them together above our heads. We have ssoooooo many books, we LOVE books. Once we get them all brought round I ought to take a photo of the garden ones we have in themselves - it would a good stack!

Anyway this room needs love and attention but not right now - we are burnt out! The french doors slide open unto the garden which is a sun trap and nice and seclued, but as yet only has mucky clay and 2 bins and 2 bamboos in pots, hahaha. Andrew is going insane with his desire to garden out there and always has his head over the squared drawing pad, designing everything to scale :) But more about that all in good time - I want you to be excited :)

Oh --- A few weeks ago I mentioned that Mamma G had gone to Italy and brought us back the largest lemon EVER. Even though this is a small one! Mamma had to bring it home, just so we could marvel in it's awsomeness - here beside a good sized 'normal lemon' :) The wine in the background is literally called 'The Tears of Christ' !! - it was lovely. And the freaky lemon is now yellow.....

 I'm off now, Andrew is working away, I'm exhausted and very thirsty and just want to rest! Darn it. Oh and there are Maltesers to eat and a 'Take That' documentary to watch xxxx

An Elbow epiphany

Another passion of mine is tapestry and embroidery. I started to do this when I found out I had permanent double vision - I'd had a vague interest in needlework and knitting before that but the knowledge that I shouldn't be able to do this made me want to prove science and my specialists wrong. (I'm a very stubborn girl.)

I recently came back to it with increased exposure to fellow artists on Etsy etc and this is some of what I have come up with so far, but it's much more than pretty threads and buttons.

I think too much, ask my Dr's, ask just about anyone :). But last night I was just laying in bed waiting for my hubby and thinking about what all I need to create and do for the upcoming Cookstown Winter Fair on the 19th of this month. I was having a mild panic attack and suddenly needed help to switch off. Beside me was my MP3 player  - Elbow was on when I pressed 'play', the song was 'weather to fly' and it really got me - right in the gut.

I have a desire to create, to make myself understood. As much as we all want to be individuals don't we all desperately hope to make that connection with others? Be it through art, writing, singing, music....we try to express our emotions and we long to know we aren't alone.

'...we decided instead we should pull out the thread that was stitching us into this tapestry vile' - these are lyrics in the song. They are also a wonderful, painful expression of the end of a relationship. Something which I have had to do in my life; end a painful, destructive union. It made me think, wouldn't it be so much easier if we could just rip out those stitches that bind us to the past, tie us to pain and confusion?? But we can't.

Instead we can pick up the needle, put a new thread through the eye and continue our life's tapestry with a different colour, a different pattern.

When I create - I grow.

My needlework shall now take on a different meaning, it may just be a personal thing and that's okay. But each stitch shall now be an affirmation of my choice to live a life that is not vile, to live in a world where I (up to a point) have the control to go in the direction I want and make new connections along the way. Possibly even making a life that is beautiful - a piece of art.

Elbow - 'weather to fly', on You tube

So, who would live in a house like this? pt1

Me - "Welcome to our living room, please do take a seat. :)"
"What? There aren't any, there isn't anything in this room at all, bar your lovely hubby!" - says you.
"Ah, ...yes" - says me, "okay come back in 6 weeks and we'll start over". *blush*

Before

Yes there isn't any thing there to speak of, though we have got the general components (walls, ceiling, floor, windows) and a rather snazzy fireplace on the wall. If you just give us a load of time at the hardware shop and ikea and let us get our furniture from Mamma G's house oh and some new cushions and let Andrew lay a floor..........

You knock the door....here we go are again.

"Hello" says I in my poshest accent, "please do come in and welcome back"

After

Now haven't we done well. The walls are painted in 'Dragon's Blood' and 'Regency Cream' - I love paint names :) All the furniture was ours, just stored in Mamma's house (poor lady, she has had so much clutter in her house - actually *blush* she still has...) apart from the table, which was Mamma's and I have stripped it, stained it and waxed it back to a new lease of life. I'm quite proud of it - it has an extendable top and when you pull the 2 halves apart the middle is tiled in delicious 60s/70s muted tiles in cream and well, darker cream. We now have another piece from a charity top which I intend to work on - it's fun :)

We finally got some of our art on the walls which feels wonderful and really makes it a home. That chair and those coaster don't belong in this room, they were taken from the kitchen. You see I took these photos on a night when we had friends coming and thus it was tidied up for a change, hahaha.

So there you go, I shall show you the kitchen/diner next time xxxxx

Blogging deliquent/ the prodigal daughter returns, with tales of pumpkins

Humbly I slink back to my laptop and actually click on my own blog to write a post instead of just reading all yours. I have been neglectful I know but I am here now to try and rectify that even though it is so NOISY OUTSIDE I CAN BARELY HEAR MYSELF THINK!!!

First off I found this delightful little photo of the last flowers to be cut from the allotment. They are sitting here on top of a bookcase which has a window on either side = lovely soft light streaming in. They look almost as if they are in a mist. That was a great bunch of flowers :)

Then we move on to Pumpkin season and what a joy it was this year - we planted some and they grew! Last year's crop was very upsetting but this year was fab, although not massive fruits boy they were tasty. Here's a few little ones just finished ripening up on the window sill. We still have some bigger green ones outside to eat - yum. I'll get the names of the different varieties we grew off Andrew tonight and then I'll up date this little post. I'm pretty sure one was 'Little Dumpling' and another was a Japanese variety and yet another was something like Jack O'lantern. But the expert is off at work so we shall have to wait and see ;)

Andrew made the most amazing Pumpkin and Jerusalem Artichoke soup and also carved this year's Halloween Pumpkin all by himself. I have a couple of photos of it - it was rather impressive looking (proud wife). The neighbours did have lots of carved ones on the doorstep area but we don't know each other yet and they may have been slightly miffed at me taking photos -haha.

Unlike last year, when the Halloween pumpkin was carved by yours truly at the lottie with a dirty penknife on a dirty bench - this year we were able to keep the seeds and clean them off, roast them, sprinkle them with some spices and have a delicious healthy jar of yummy snacking seeds. Oh they are so moreish - we have both been having to rein ourselves in and not eat them as much as we want or they'd all be gone way before now. It's well worth the effort though - unless you save yours for planting, then....well I don't know if a spice coated, roasted seed produces a spicy roasted flavoured pumpkin but...;)

More soon - I have finally taken some photos of the living room and kitchen, though now that I look at them, the rooms have further evolved since Saturday, haha :)

Hello lovelies

So I am finally writing from my own house, sitting on my sofa next to Andy (Maggie has her own sofa) with the dishwasher machine (eek! - yes we now have one) going on in the background and the lingering taste of pumpkin and jerusalem artichoke soup in my mouth. So things sound good, right?
In one sense, 'things' could not be better. This house is a joy and though I haven't been taking photos to share with you (slaps own wrist on your behalf) I shall remedy that soon. You see I haven't been well. As I always am honest here and share the ups and downs I shall just say the words Nervous Breakdown and leave it at that. It's really all too confusing and upsetting to try and even make sense off.

Andrew has been given time off to look after me and I must say I am very grateful to his place of work for their understanding. But you know what? This wonderful gift of the internet and all you darling people is really helping just as much. I thank you all for taking me away from my own life with your stories and gardens, your eloquent words and beautiful photography. If you ever doubt the reasons for keeping a blog - then remember me, sitting here, finding such comfort from your ramblings and sharing in your lives.

With love and thanks

I have been working very hard, honest!

Okay, so no photos tonight and just a quick note really to let you know I am okay and the house is slowly coming together. Shame time - I haven't been to the lottie in weeks, I know you can all boo and hiss at me, I deserve it!

Tuesday is a very important day as the Sky man is coming to put our broadband in and believe me, I may not sleep for a week - so much catching up to do! Luckily we now have the espresso machine up and running (it's been in it's box since Andrew's birthday back in June) and a good stock of coffee :) Cue lots of reading up and commenting on your blogs and loads of photos of the house being uploaded! Prepare yourselves ;)

Love and hugs xx

Had to share this super quirky little treasure hunt my cousin did for me. I just got a cryptic text saying there was a 'treasure map in the badger cup at 24a' - who could resist that??


So here is another of my collages to share the fun with you.......

And here it is in the newly finished hall (this is only a little of the hall and not such a great photo of said gift but it is there on the middle hook under the mirror).

We just had our first little dinner party in our house with the lovely Mamma G who has just returned from holiday :) She brought us the most fantastic lemon; I know, how can a lemon be fantastic? - all shall be revealed next time ;)

Our Wee Walk

This is the joy of living on the development limit. We walk out of our little development, turn left and we're in the countryside :) There is an empty field beside us and then the next one is full to the brim of cabbages and sheep, hahaha. Walking up the road to the left of this field usually called The Tongue Loanen and all you see are trees and berries (and sloes, wink wink) and fields everywhere. The only thing is an odd car, the electricity pillions and the sound of gun shot - pheasant hunting season seems to have started in Dobb's Land to the right of the road.

Here's a few pictures I took, click to make it larger and I hope to share more of this beautiful countryside with you throughout the seasons.

A great big mwuah and a hug to you all - happy weekend xxx

Of mice and tradesmen

So since we moved out Mamma has been having lots of unwanted visitors in the form of mice - oh dear. The house is so quiet all the time without us and Maggie tootling about that she can hear everything, especially at night, it's not fun. We have caught 3 so far in very good humane traps but thank goodness Mamma is away of a wee holiday - she really can't stand them at all, though I they are stunningly beautiful.

All the tradesmen have finished in the new house and we have even got our great pal Bill (from the allotments) to tile our shower for us (he's a professional with his own 2 man business - himself and Johnny) and things, if I may say so myself, are really starting to look quite spiffing :) I very nearly have the living room done and the hall, just a little more painting and Andrew has the floors laid in both, what a champ! Photos will follow but I am here at Mamma's at the moment and haven't remembered the darned camera so I guess you will have to wait just a little longer ~ sorry :)

I can tell you that the living room is 'Regency Cream' and 'Dragon's Blood' and the hall is 'Deep Adam Green' so if you know anything about traditional chalky emulsion paints you'll have an idea - hahahaha.

We also went on a stunningly beautiful walk around the corner (which is technically the countryside as we are at the development limit) and had the most relaxing time. I took photos and will put them up later too. It's quite funny as I hope to show you the gardens and then take you on the walk so you can see why nothing has been done outside yet. So loads to show and tell but silly me and no photos.

We'll be up at the lottie at the weekend too which really needs urgent attention and I have a cool wee story for you about my cousin leaving a treasure map there for us to find our house warming gift - cute. Then of course there shall be the obligatory load of pics (probably in a mosaic form) of what's going on on the plots.

Until next time - hugs to you all x

the new house

So we are between homes, mostly in the the new one but a lot of our stuff is here in Mamma's where we also come everynight for a chat and and a
wee go on the net (we haven't got an address yet!!! so no phone, therefore no internet....)

It has been quite the nightmare move to be honest. The estate agent, the developer, the architects, the builders - no one seems to know what they are doing (and in most cases, they are darn right uninterested in helping us sort it all out - not the builders, they're lovely). We moved into a house that wasn't finished on Monday last and a list of 40 snags, which were just the ones to start with :( Not the happy day we were hoping for to say the least. The builders and contractors only left on Wednesday dinner time and there are still things to be done and of course the all important address to find out - really it's like the blind leading the blind. To put it into perspective, I haven't even taken photos of the work we have done and the colour I have managed to get on the wall, the new bed, the carpet and the floor Andy laid - I just haven't been feeling myself at all. So I got this photo taken today for this blog just so you get an idea of the house.

Four people have completed but we are the only ones living in our house, everyone else just has too much to do to and are getting people in to lay floors and then they come and do a little painting in the evening etc. Therefore we have the noise of the builders all day and utter silence, deafening silence at night - it's a little different to what we're used to; I think if Maggie and her cuteness wasn't there we would be running for the hills ;)

Tomorrow is my first day there alone as Andrew goes back to work and in a way I am looking forward to it, but mostly I'm a little nervous (I am such a little girl!) . At least I have loads of paint in the house and can keep myself very busy indeed.

I have some 'before' shots of the rooms but I'm not going to put any up until I have some sort of 'after' to go with them, which is almost ready to be done for the living room and master bedroom.

I miss you all terribly and want to sit for a couple of days and catch up with all your stories but I just can't so I'll have a quick glance around and maybe get enough time to leave a message - major hugs and I dearly hope we get ourselves on the net soon and I can be part of the gang again :)

Excuse the mess of my hair and clothes and Maggie isn't groomed (shame on me) but this is real life, welcome to our house x

those 5 a day can literally save your life....

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-us-canada-11401167

the mighty courgette army  :)

Poor Enid is in hospital

My laptop has been ill since last Friday and She ie. Enid, is still going to be there for a couple more days being fixed. She has a virus and probably a temperature and a sniffly nose too; so sad.

So life is contining but I simply cannot use this old laptop as the letters stick and some don't work at all = frustrated Cherry Blossom Tattoo.

We are finally moving into the new house on Monday so life is happening and my brain is full to bursting anyway. I shall take many a photo though and be sure to share the adventure.

Love and hugs xxx

It's getting all Autumn-y at the lottie

I have to confess I haven't been at my lottie much over the past couple of weeks. First there was the onion eating incident (I am intolerant and was sick all one weekend) then last weekend I had a tummy bug :( Oh why world, why??!

Anyway I was able to get out for little periods here and there and I pretty much never go anywhere without a camera :) So,here are some lovely shots of our very own produce from our allotment, the colours of which have cheered me up through my tummy upsets and the dull rainy days. They have also put me mind of the cosy dark and wintery nights that lie ahead and in response to that I have started up my needlework again and even have a sampler to get started :) Being sick though has left me with little energy so I shall write about my newest crafty adventures another day (right now I could do with a nap). Also I have to remember to tell you all about the utterly fabulous Suzanne from 'Little White Dog' as my ATC came in the post with a little gift and has shown her to be an absolute genius; an arty goddess if ever there was one.

So here are my happy newest pics which may go on Etsy but I'm not sure quite yet...

Though I do have some lovely produce photos (the produce is lovely not the photos) from quick trips Andy has made in the gales and rain. We were there today for 15 mins too but boy, the rain started and I had the worst 'thunder' headache.

-----Onion Comp News ----

Winner of the largest onion was.....

Muriel!! (darkhorse to me as I didn't know she was growing onions for the big day) She won a cup :) I have to try and get a picture, haha

Winner of the best matching pair was.....

Stephen! His 2 onions were so well matched that they were weighed over and over just to make sure. They were exactly the same weight! I do so hope at least one of the winners has their cup in their shed and are willing to take part in a photo op as soon as the weather permits me to get down there.

Love and hugs, till tomorrow xx

Bloomin' Monday plus Onions everywhere - update!

The mini monsoon that hit us here yesterday (ie. 30 hours of sheet rain and gales) has finally stopped. The silence is deafening and all I can see out my velux window onto the world is a white sky which blends well with the white ceiling in this attic. Oh it sounded rough all night and being in the attic was a little like a rain storm when you're camping - loud but re-enforces that feeling of 'thank goodness I'm not out there'.

I took this photo at the weekend, or maybe it was one night during last week, I can't remember but it isn't important - all these darling blooms will be strewn all over the plot by now :( Hey, at least I always have a camera with me and can capture the glory moments when they do come. Feast your eyes on this load of happy colour :)

oh go on have 2

Look BLUE sky!!

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Oh and the onion comp. Well I didn't get to go. "Why not", you ask. "I was looking forward to all the pics and the gossip!". Yes, yes, so was I but before we went we decided to have a Chinese meal, of course Andrew ordered no onions in mine but....it would appear they just cooked it all and then poked them out at the end = food poisoning for Carrie - hooray! I can't eat onions, how many times does this need to be said!

Saturday night was thus a horrid puke fest for me and I spent most of my time in the bathroom. The irony was not lost though, even through the sea of vomit - I couldn't go to the onion comp because an onion had tried to kill me!!

evil onion

Wow, it's not like we were going to win anyway, so why the conspiracy?? Who at the lotties has taken up a part-time Saturday job at the local Chinese. No one is owning up......

So sorry about that. I will try to catch all the gossip the next time I'm there at the plots and who knows maybe someone has photos I can use. Hugs xxx

UPDATE - Tuesday morning
Going from a cafe to the car this morning I was shocked to find a very random and shifty looking red onion in the car park, the next space to us! I'm starting to fear imminent mass attack and have gone into hiding... ;)

Dear sweet (not burny) readers

I am feeling a little better :) Boy it has taken a long time for me to come around this time and I have missed you all. Thank you for your comments on the plan - which has been improved (more about that in another post, I am a tease) and now even has a 'story' or is it 'journey', I can't remember but it was Alan Titchmarsh (the god that he is) said that every garden should have one or the other years ago and I liked it.

I was at my allotment tonight, gathering sweetcorn for dinner and taking photos as I haven't been in a while. Mamma G was actually there too today harvesting some of our runner beans for her vegetarian pal who is on driving duty tonight ;) It was beautiful there, a warm sunny day and hardly a soul about as it was dinner time. I love it when it's like that.

I'll put up a couple of photos - but first I must tell you exciting news.....tomorrow (Saturday) is the great onion competition evening. Fear not dear readers I shall have the camera battery fully charged and will try to capture all the action for your pleasure. There is also a BBQ but we have been invited to another BBQ - oh crikey, we don't get invites for any parties for ages then 2 come at once! Either way both venues are veggie plots so you won't mind, will you.

We had the best sweetcorn ever this year, remember those beautiful red tassels earlier in the season? Well, this time last year we were in glorious Brittany and missed the height of the season. We tried the usual 'F1 Swift' but it failed on us :( so this batch is the utterly yummy 'F1 Sundance' - so good, really I recommend this most heartily.

Before I go I must tell/show you the nasty incident with one of our gorgeous Cheyenne peppers. Andrew tasted it and said it was sweet, I nibbled it, yummy and sweet, pass back to Andrew and again, sweet, then ...I took a photo and then I was stupid enough to taste it one more time. Arrghgghghghh - seeds and burny burny heat on my tongue - thus ensued the pain dance and revenge... I hadn't any milk (quite obviously on a plot) or water so I tried a blackberry...do not do this, ever! A burnt tongue immediately followed by a rather acidic berry = even more aow time including involuntary jumping up and down - the shame.

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